Hollows Of My Emotions

I waited for you sitting there in the hollows of my emotions
I turned stone eyed; the tear drop rolling on my cheek froze
Body was still mind paralysed, plethora of emotions rose
You were far from sight, stay farther you chose
I kept crying, mumbling, dying….my love lay in tatters rimose
You didn't shudder, heed, budge…be incorrigible you chose
Insanity, yes it is.. lunatic yes I was
Searching your traces, like mad, like morose
 Life came to a standstill, nothing distorted
Hopes shattered and a chapter closed
You didn't see how I felt; sever my soul you dispose,
Longing I was then, longing I am now
Later, sooner, the ache will depose.

A mature me!

How definitions of things and feelings have changed as I got mature

Fun- more of business meets, making clients happy but lesser friends

Chilling-A business party, a social gathering and not kitties with lots of gossips

High-to see the rising balance in bank account and not getting drunk with friends

Happiness- lots of money, growing business and not touching anyone’s heart

A good day- A deal cracked, new orders but lesser satisfaction

Vacation- A short trip to a nearby destination just to salt away Family’s complains but not a comforting holiday

Shopping- Sophisticated business suits, Swiss watches and elegant shoes and not those pair of pink jeans and tees.

Friends- a known few who don’t know much

Life- A competition to win and not a journey to live 

MEMORIES

When mornings are dull and nights are blue,

I Ponder the paths which I’ve walked through.

Gather the memories of laughter with friends,

Where fun and frolic never used to end

Admire the gifts which god has sent

Wanted anything more I never meant

In my ears that mirth is still alive,

Life take’s a turn back I do believe.

Sometimes they dupe me at other they make me live

Those lovely moments, deep in my the heart are still so cherished

Sooner or later distress may go and life will revive

But in these dreary moments, memories- the only hold to survive

I will grow, move ahead and time's going to fly

The moments have gone but the memories inside will never die

Distances

These distances between us, as they grow

Make’s my heart go blue and low

On closing my eyes, the fragrance of your body lingers on my mind

The more I try to move away from you, get even closer to the things left behind
Every breath of mine has your name engraved on it

And so will it remain is a promise so true in every of it’s bit

Though the acrimony and the tears are given by you

But my eyes are wet the world shall never know

We may move on, walk away, and never turn back

Yet the only thing 'YOU' in my life will lack

Tomorrow I may smile, laugh and sing

But without you in my life it'll remain incomplete a thing

Yesterdays never comes back again

No hopes for lost love getting revived

Today may die in the hope of a better tomorrow

This love was meant to add in our lives only a little more sorrow

Let us move, part now, forget it and find a new way

Leave behind this bitter part so that the future doesn’t sway....

Life o’ life!

Life o’ life! I thought you were so simple
But as I grew, I realized you have complications in ample
You always say there is a sunny after every rainy day
But this hope instead of giving, many times takes away
I thought the way you make us follow was in fact flat & straight
And the dreams you makes us dream were right and perfect
I thought you’ll give us smile for every tear we shed
And fulfill our deep wishes, desiring which our lives we led
The reality turned out to be absolutely different
Your ways of giving contentment are very torment
You ask a heart for a heart and life for existence
That’s how you give every life essence and substance
You have no mercy you only have rules
Giving and taking, thereby making everyone a fool
You show as you are very generous and just
But to get something from you, follow your rules, is a must
You always enjoy playing with everyone hide and seek
When opportunity comes close by you make it more bleak
You laugh when we go through tough times or we suffer
That’s the way you choose to make us really tougher
You make our lives go through twists and turns
And our energy becomes the fuel which burns
This is your only method of teaching
And today I’ve also started it preaching :)

I miss u life……….

I miss my school days and ringing of the bell
For opening the lunch boxes,
And a new story which teacher had to tell
I miss the samosas and the canteen,
A heart so innocent and so clean
My school bus, my raincoat and the old slam book
The parathas in the tiffin which with all her love mom used to cook
The playground, the mud
And the football team’s stud
Bunking the class and study hard at last
The laughter, the jokes are all now past
Teasing friends and playing the pranks
And fight so hard to get the top ranks
Whether they were sunny or the rainy days
Tried to attend school in all the possible ways
Birthdays of friends and soft chocolate cake
Giving gifts to one another which we ourselves used to make
Precious than jewels were those friends of mine
Even little money to enjoy was enough and fine
What days were those and life so simple
Now there is no time but freedom and money is in ample…..

Love is an illusion

The night is dark I am all alone
With my loneliness I whimper and moan
The love which seemed to be true, was in fact illusory
And the promises made with conviction were false and cursory
The inner magnificence becomes so secondary
People have always and will love just the superficial beauty
Who cares for what you are even somewhat
The concern is always what you are not
People make you count only your blemishes
But no one tries to applauds for your accomplishments
They show as if they love, they show as if they care
But deep somewhere the feelings are just so unfair
They live with you, they promise a heart
But in reality they just never discharge
They make you see countless dreams
But turning them into reality is never their regard
They say you are special
But you are treated as trivial
You hope you try
At last you relinquish
It seems the journey may go long
But then you realize this is soon going to finish
The hopes sinks the optimism die
No one is there to hear to your cry...
Love is an illusion pain is certainty
Joy is transitory and only KARMA perpetuity.