Distances

These distances between us, as they grow

Make’s my heart go blue and low

On closing my eyes, the fragrance of your body lingers on my mind

The more I try to move away from you, get even closer to the things left behind
Every breath of mine has your name engraved on it

And so will it remain is a promise so true in every of it’s bit

Though the acrimony and the tears are given by you

But my eyes are wet the world shall never know

We may move on, walk away, and never turn back

Yet the only thing 'YOU' in my life will lack

Tomorrow I may smile, laugh and sing

But without you in my life it'll remain incomplete a thing

Yesterdays never comes back again

No hopes for lost love getting revived

Today may die in the hope of a better tomorrow

This love was meant to add in our lives only a little more sorrow

Let us move, part now, forget it and find a new way

Leave behind this bitter part so that the future doesn’t sway....

Life o’ life!

Life o’ life! I thought you were so simple
But as I grew, I realized you have complications in ample
You always say there is a sunny after every rainy day
But this hope instead of giving, many times takes away
I thought the way you make us follow was in fact flat & straight
And the dreams you makes us dream were right and perfect
I thought you’ll give us smile for every tear we shed
And fulfill our deep wishes, desiring which our lives we led
The reality turned out to be absolutely different
Your ways of giving contentment are very torment
You ask a heart for a heart and life for existence
That’s how you give every life essence and substance
You have no mercy you only have rules
Giving and taking, thereby making everyone a fool
You show as you are very generous and just
But to get something from you, follow your rules, is a must
You always enjoy playing with everyone hide and seek
When opportunity comes close by you make it more bleak
You laugh when we go through tough times or we suffer
That’s the way you choose to make us really tougher
You make our lives go through twists and turns
And our energy becomes the fuel which burns
This is your only method of teaching
And today I’ve also started it preaching :)

I miss u life……….

I miss my school days and ringing of the bell
For opening the lunch boxes,
And a new story which teacher had to tell
I miss the samosas and the canteen,
A heart so innocent and so clean
My school bus, my raincoat and the old slam book
The parathas in the tiffin which with all her love mom used to cook
The playground, the mud
And the football team’s stud
Bunking the class and study hard at last
The laughter, the jokes are all now past
Teasing friends and playing the pranks
And fight so hard to get the top ranks
Whether they were sunny or the rainy days
Tried to attend school in all the possible ways
Birthdays of friends and soft chocolate cake
Giving gifts to one another which we ourselves used to make
Precious than jewels were those friends of mine
Even little money to enjoy was enough and fine
What days were those and life so simple
Now there is no time but freedom and money is in ample…..

Love is an illusion

The night is dark I am all alone
With my loneliness I whimper and moan
The love which seemed to be true, was in fact illusory
And the promises made with conviction were false and cursory
The inner magnificence becomes so secondary
People have always and will love just the superficial beauty
Who cares for what you are even somewhat
The concern is always what you are not
People make you count only your blemishes
But no one tries to applauds for your accomplishments
They show as if they love, they show as if they care
But deep somewhere the feelings are just so unfair
They live with you, they promise a heart
But in reality they just never discharge
They make you see countless dreams
But turning them into reality is never their regard
They say you are special
But you are treated as trivial
You hope you try
At last you relinquish
It seems the journey may go long
But then you realize this is soon going to finish
The hopes sinks the optimism die
No one is there to hear to your cry...
Love is an illusion pain is certainty
Joy is transitory and only KARMA perpetuity.

The World Is Mine

Usually you are remembered every moment,
But that one moment in the whole day
When your remembrance is at it its zenith is the most torment.
When the cold breeze touches me
In the winter nights,
The want reaches its crest of your hug warm and tight.
The feel of your touch and your breaths on my neck
Is as fresh as it was on the day when we first met.
I close my eyes you pull me near,
Two hearts become one,
And the clamor of hearts fills the silent atmosphere.
Lying in your lap watching the stars,
Knitting thousand dreams,
Walking with you till the horizon and far.
The hold of your hands
Making countless promises,
Your kiss on my forehead
Makes me feel like a princess.
The trust in your eyes make my life worth living,
The assurance in your smile
Makes me feel secure and more giving.
Waking up in your embrace
As for us the sun shines
When you say “I AM THERE”
I feel the world is mine.

Down The Memory Lane

Yesterday night sitting beside my window I walked
down the memory lane
And realized that the moments which once were joy
today can be deepest of pain
Thought about the days which came so late and went so early
Those were the moments when I lived
which now have became memories merely
Collected the pieces of those hasty meets
which were inconsequential but just was a need
Remember your inveigling words in the moments of anger
but now when I turn back, the silhouette of past exists no longer
You held my hand and all the fears suddenly disappeared
you are not there to wipe but rains will wash away my tears
Faith was the key which broke like glass
all my dreams shattered at last
The ways parted, you turned your back and walked
going away from my sight on the way which destiny chalked
Pang of separation is difficult to bear
but this pain is beautiful, mystical and rare
The thought broke it was dawn ……
Suddenly I realized that don’t know how I traveled so many miles
With all these memories I was left on my face with a blameless smile.

A Perfect Someone

A perfect someone, is it me or you or any other person, an intricate question, isn't it ?
I went for the search of  the answer far beyond the confines of my mind, just gave it a challenge, analysed not people but personalities, not needs but desires, not accomplishments but aspirations, not truth but the reason behind it, not flower but fragrance, every time I found one personality is complex than the other everyone’s need were different than others’and everyone has their own aspirations, but yes I found one factor everyone had in common, everyone wanted satisfaction and they had a mindset that they will get it on achieving something(what this something is, is again a big question) I being no exception and what it takes to achieve this satisfaction in life is a perfect personality a balanced one, is it, really, but is it really possible, and how far is it achievable?

I saw people in different kinds of situations, they laugh, they cry, they fight, they give up, they lose control, sometimes they bang their heads against the wall in frustration, sometimes they kill themselves. I haven’t seen any person who hasn't been selfish at times, who never said anything vice, who never had a greed, who doesn't want to surpass others in whatever he does, one who never had a lust for anything in life.

So what is a perfect personality, one who can control his anger in the most exasperating situations, one who can come up with a most able idea to take a company to heights when its on the verge of bankruptcy, one who can work for the interest of people rather than himself and still give his best, one who can give most ideal solution for a most complicated problem, one who can smile when tears are at the verge, well there seems to be no perfect answer to this .

The more I searched the more imperfection I found. The things which appeared to be the most beautiful turned out to be the most ugly, but that’s how it is. The underlying fact…the search for it makes you understand the world more unmistakably.

 Don’t search perfection because probably that’s the beauty of it neither it can be found nor achieved we can just strive for it, the reason is simple the moment we achieve the perfection according to our perception, the moment next the definition changes again and something else starts looking perfect…..that’s how life gets a mission…either its search or achievement…so my conclusion, the search is still on and yes if anyone has came across any such person there lies the answer to my question!